I don't wanna let you go.
I want you here, by my side.
Please give me another chance.
I promise you, I'll be a better person.
Forgive me alright? If i'm wrong.
Look at me alright? If i'm near.
I really need you so much.

Till then,
all i say is please, i beg you.

I've thought this is quite meaningful, it's quite me :

I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway
I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway
I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you

Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you

Yeah, and it's certainly meaningful to me. Extremly.
Well about today. Okok lah.
Lwy as the ice-cream woman and waitress for the day. Haha

Quote of the day: "Get lost!!!"

As usual, it inspires me in some way.

Recess. I'm thankful for that, guess it's worth it.
You assured me.
I sort of like didn't want to do at first, but hehe.

Then was History. Quite ok lah. Had revision and blabla. Some of them, i rmb. Some, i couldn't. Coz i haven't revise yet...

Then D&T, wan yin got hers. Audy got hers. =) Our grp tried to complete whatever we can today so that next week would be an easy one. Yeah and i think we're sortta done.

Today's quite ok. I don't know about tmr.

It wasn't good at all.

My eyes were closing during Maths, couldn't help it. Then was recess. And next was IT. It was a dang funny 2 periods of IT. Tiffany was the funniest. This was the conversation between us.

Tiffany: ( To Cheryl ) What is the website ah? Is it monstertreehouse or monsterhousetree?

Cheryl: ( No reply )

Me: Err, it's monstertreehouse.

Me: Btw, what's monstertreehouse?

Tiffany: ( opening the internet explorer page )

Tiffany: ( getting ready to type in www.monstertreehouse ... )

Tiffany: Eh? Not monstertreehouse lah, it's happytreefriends.

Me: ( Goodness!!! ) Wa Tiffany! Monstertreehouse and happytreefriends very big difference leh.

Okay, that was part of it. Can't tell you the whole conversation. Can't believe that monstertreehouse crap is actually happytreefriends. Haha, tiffany.

Then i walked over to aisyah's place. See her playing some mcr game. So i was like laughing throughout the whole part. She had to kill some aliens or whatever. Yeah, and i was laughing. I told her to let me take over and i actually made some mess out of that game. Haha.

Went over to audy. We stopped her from pressing the keyboard and the next moment. GAME OVER appeared on the screen.

Cheryl was trying to disturb me by the back and i was like trying to prevent her. Yg was on the floor hiding from all of us coz she didn't want our massage. Then i don't know what i do, cheryl fell on yg.

I can't rmb what else i did during IT but i know it was dang fun.

Lwy was super funny.

Me: Then we bang the lamp post.

(Some parts missing)

Lwy: You all very bad. ..... just to see me lang-ga.

Before that, i was like having a mood swing. Total mood swing. I just couldn't bring myself to talk or laugh lah. But she cured me. Really cured me.

I was totally helpless. Yeah, they agreed that i'm a bai chi when it comes to that. And i myself agree too. And what do i get? Not the pissed off look, is the irritated look. Bai chis are good sometimes ok.

The day would come
And i don't dare to think about tmr.
Seriously, i don't dare.

Godma...

I'm tired of being what you want me to be.
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface.
Every step that i take is another mistake to you.

I've become so numb I can't feel you there.
I've become so tired so much aware.
All I want to do is be more like me and less like you.


I'm back from KFC. Had my lunch there and my skirt's in a mess mess now. Filled with m. potato and it has hardened now. Yuck. Coz i wanted to demonstrate how wyn eats her potato. ( so disgusting ) I didn't know that the potato "flew" onto her skirt. So she did it back on me and it was worse than what i did on her! Altho it was just lunch, we had great fun!

Before that, we had laughs too. They were crap, i tell you. Talk shiit only. And that driver made her pissed lah. How could he man! She was about to open the door and then the driver drove off. " Shhhii.." Ok then, i got scolded. But nvm. =) iLOVEDit.

[The hidden feelings]

Sorry lwy, i hit too hard. I don't know why i still decided to run in the end. Thankful for that.


It's You.

I've become so numb.
I can't feel you there.

Guess every hardworking ppl out there must be studying for exams now. Yeah, they said to start now or else it's too late.

Everything was ok except the part where i need to tell ab that i didn't bring the workbook. What the, how can i forget about that lah. I found it at home, hidden somewhere. But that didn't spoil my day.

Ab talked to me loudly infront of some peeps when i was walking up. Paiseh. Maths was ok. 1 period and it was quite unusual with you behind. =) Then was PE. I'm thankful that i ran up. Yeah then was PE. They said that i should join the 1km run. Haha. Well, the starting was fun. We ran arnd the field and i was like laughing as loud as i could, as if the whole world is mine. I don't care. Worse, i don't know why the hoops made me laugh. Ofc lah, that girl made it all so funny. I couldn't stop laughing from the store till i walk. On the way up was even better. Thx to wy. Then wynne told me the funny part and i laughed. There was this sec3 guy who screamed after i laughed and he gave me a shock. I tripped over him and wynne tripped over me. I banged into the wall and ... it goes on.

The music test and art was ok. Then was CE, we were late for MT coz of her. Yeah, and we were so tired aft the run up but ab didn't realise it. Then school's over. During the lesson, everyone's funny : Trala, wyn, wy, yg, ys ... everyone lah! And thx adeline for the call. It was arnd 3 when she left. We were behind her and the conver was ok.


It's good that you said everything.
Don't keep it to yourself.

I become so tired.

Addicted to you.
In the end.

Hey. Thank you so much. I'm really very very happy about ytd. You know it. You know how i felt. Well, i don't know how things will be like in the future, but i know that you've made me very happy ytd. Everything wasn't well ytd. Yeah and i thought my day is bad but i was wrong. Thank you once again. I'll try, i promise.

Today was ok. Sorry, i've got no reaction. Coz i really didn't see.
Yeah, morning was fine. To Zhuo - I'm not so mature yet. And haha you actually noticed it lah. -3 of you were funny and it was great to be walking infront. And well, LWY was funny-so so in the morning. Somehow i had to turn back and t.s.o saw me. Yeah and my time was quite right during recess.

English, went to the lib. raining. Then was science. The lesson was the best best bestest. I enjoyed it. Thunder...rain... but the lesson went on. And thanks for helping me. Thanks so much. But i don't know if she will come after me again even after your help. LWY was like having diff. trying to explain those to yg. Haha! The conversation was funny man.

And somehow, i was quite right. It was raining. You are rich. The whole thing was ok. And i'm glad the end was nice. Haha. the ending was good. I went for CCA. I didn't listen lah, the last part. I was sleeping. I was really closing my eyes but had to get up in case i get caught.

LWY ended it all...

*To you, don't be so upset, cheer up*

I'll try, i promise.
Please care.
Coz i do.

Things are not the same.
Somehow, they went totally opposite.
You didn't wait. --
And how long can i keep this?

You didn't care.

I don't dare to think about tomorrow.
And i don't wanna know.
But definitely, i want it to be better.
I promise,
that i do care.

( my sad chapter of life continues ... )

Still, there were better things that i could think of.

You are freaking unreasonable.

Today was okay. The last conversation was funny. I don't know why but you kept on laughing. First, i started by giving the shocked expression coz i was kinda ... shocked. And then when you saw that, you laughed to yourself. Lame right? Then i was like i need to go and i said that you shouldn't be happy at all. And the story continues... The rest of them were not too good. It sucked.

And they got scolded for standing arnd there. The worst reaction that anyone could ever know... So dumb lah. Got those kind of sian sian look.

IPW presentation on tmr. Guess it's gonna be fun man. Haha! Many reasons to it. I'll be waiting and let's just see man. What a tmr! We've spent almost the afternoon getting things done and i think should be quite prepared.


From your laughter,
You thought it was lame but fun.

From your reaction,
I thought it was great!


And now i ask myself,
did you care?

*Wah, got style. Lift up both legs somemore. *

September 11 ( 911 ) Sounds familiar huh?

Today was one ( hell ) kind of day. As usual, i don't need to repeat myself. MONDAYS.... ( to be continued ) I told people to tell me when it was time for me to go and they didn't. Worse, they came up with lame excuses ( which i can't be bothered with ). Well, nvm. Can't blame them too. Just feeling a bit wasted. That's it. And lessons are ok. Recess, analyse the field? Haha, we did that. And MT was funny. Ms Ab is always enjoyable. Today is a BAD day.

*And what's so wrong with MSN?



You didn't care.

Let's talk about care.


There's every reason why i need you to care. Well, starting from the very first day... that you came into my life.

If you cared, you would do everything for me. Of course, not everything. But at least a few little things for me. Goes to show that your heart has a place for me. You thought of me at least a few seconds.

If you didn't care, you wouldn't even do anything that concerns me. Altho you know that i'm doing for you. Still, everything stays the same. You lead life normally ( even though i'm out there doing this for you ), you heck.

There's the difference in caring and not caring.

But then, here comes it. You might wonder, who am i? Or you might think, i'm not someone who needs your care. I'm not quite there, i'm a total nothing.





I care for you,
even up till this very moment.

If i had a chance to,

Wanna watch The Devil Wears Prada.

" Bimbo flick, but fun..."

Should have watched it last time but we chose BARNYARD instead. It's all about COW HEROES.

The holidays are gonna over soon. And guess what? Many have started studying. Yeah! By right, should start studying. And i'll be glad to post again if someone ever tells me that he/she had finished studying after the holidays.

Thank You:

1. Ms Ab for giving us wonderful ( loads of ) homework to complete during the holidays. Lian xi what. Good right?

• Cheryl for helping me in that way.

• Queen.

*And not forgetting You. Your effort is appreciated BY ME.


I'll think about you no matter what.
If i could turn back the time,
I would put you first in my life.

Make this promise: Care.

at 9:47 PM, you became another chapter of my life.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

I'll tell a different story.

You cared.
You bothered.

Somehow, i managed to hear you. Because you're in my heart. Dang! Someone was darn paiseh and yeah, everything seemed normal. And to you, quite extra there. You were not supposed to be there but you were. I saw everything you did, esp the part where you were doing so much actions with your hands. Very tintei.

PS. learn how to differentiate things.


And i'll tell a different story.


I'm sorry, but now is seriously not the time.

at 5:08 PM, you became another chapter of my life.

I wished i was there but i couldn't be.
I wished you would be here but you weren't.
I hoped things would be fine, but things weren't.

I'm waiting even up till this very moment.
Please care.
I hope you'll know how i feel.

at 11:23 AM, you became another chapter of my life.

Monday, September 04, 2006

Quote of the day : If i can't reply, then i can't reply lor

It's dang inspirational. Well, not exactly. But at least it made me laugh. It's a simple statement yet so logical. My! Don't you envy the person who said this? He/She sure has 100% logic.

I rather go school/ have school than stay at home? Coz i miss PEOPLE. 1 WEEK without seeing them. I'll be ultra bored. But then again, i MONDAYS are not good days to start our week. Hopefully i can change my views on it. Prove me wrong!

One of them was telling me to appreciate art. Art, well it's a subject. But seriously, it's either you have the talent or you don't. I'll leave it up to you to decide if you should appreciate it. Plus, we might have wonderful art teachers in our school. Shouldn't disappoint them huh?

And sorry, should have watched the devil wears prada and not barnyard. But anyway, we learnt more about the cow hero - Ben. Maybe we'll watch devil wears prada some other times?



i'm still waiting for you
up till now.
this very moment.
please care.

at 11:18 AM, you became another chapter of my life.

Saturday, September 02, 2006

It's just the starting of the holidays and I'm already missing you.
Tell me, how do i spend it without seeing you at all?
It's almost killing.

Just came back after few hours of wasting time. And during that time, I was thinking and day-dreaming. Well, ofc i do smile a few times as i recall those wonderful times. I definitely hope that i can smile more in the future. I had this story in mind "Sometimes i really wonder if you really cared at all. If you didn't, you wouldn't have done those. But why did you care? Deep down, i seriously hope you do. I am nothing. I have nothing. I can't be compared to others. I'm lousy. I fear that you would be taken away and i'd lose you forever. " This is definitely a true story.

I'm doing what i can till i can't.

*I know about that.
But i'm just afraid that i can't bring myself to accept this.
Do give me some time to consider about it.



A day without you is hard to carry on.

And i sign off as,
the sec two girl.

at 12:20 PM, you became another chapter of my life.

Friday, September 01, 2006

You know.
You care.
If not, you wouldn't bother to do those.

Well, i'll continue from ytd. It was morning. I walked and saw surroundings were like so dark. They didn't turn on the lights. Then i sortta ran even tho it was wet. Well, good things went on till i was needed to be at the back. Yeah, we watched wonderful performance by diff. people. ( I.C pls do not worry too much ) Haha. I thought the I.C did a great job. Oh, then i was still at the back. I popped my head out the hole and woops! someone saw me because that teacher turn what. Nvm! I wasn't suppose to stand there. Then i went to block some people's way while standing, but they didn't scold me. It was dismissal soon, everywhere was jammed esp outside the staffroom. I squeezed through and hehe, and i wished one teacher on the way.
Well, no need to thank me for the present. Then, erm i've gotta stay back for awhile. So i had a long chat. And i ended off with crap when i was dragged away. We enjoyed ourselves very much. Some teachers just got so much presents while some just didn't manage to succeed in that. That shows the popularaty of the teachers. When having chats with other ex students ... i was being seen many times.
I stood outside the walkway and finally, someone approached me to talk to me lah. See, that person so good right? So nice. Well, she's a friend lah. And some of them wished US happy teachers' day. Did we hear right? Nah, they were joking. Okie, i decided to leave after iccc told me to. We went to watch barnyard. Well, cows are great in that movie. But it was freezing inside. Then we went other places and we had great fun outside. Saw many ppl. And i went home after that.

Seriously, i hope you'd appreciate it.
Love it.
I mean every word that i said.

at 10:14 AM, you became another chapter of my life.